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Saturday, 10 July 2004

  • so technically it's friday night, but hey, i'll go with saturday.  so, got the quotes of the night here-

    "Let's just say you could be one of the lucky few who get to know the reason why i'm called 'god'."

    "I can get you to scream in both a good way and bad..."

    "and when, i mean 'if' it happens, you'll be saying, 'goddamn, that arrogant fuck from ny was right"
    ~all three from the arrogant fuck from new york, my buddy kyle.  oh, that kid makes me chuckle like only few can lol.   

Friday, 09 July 2004

  • forgetting
    about blooming darkness
    and flashes of happiness--
    forgetting.
    forgetting to be concerned
    with feelings or worth
    or the sense of belonging that
    so often comes with a
    four lettered word
    called love...

    forgetting
    and falling
    so hard, i don't know
    what's happening
    or what to call what i'm feeling...
    what was that word?

    or maybe i'm wrong
    that word was never so gentle
    or ambiguous as you are...
    it made me excited
    and weak
    but never as content
    and strong as when you're near...
    what was that goddamn word?

     

    meghan told me i fall in love too easily, but that's not true.  i fall into infatuation much too easily, that i'll admit, but love?  i've never been in love.  until...(dare i say it?) .................now?

  • so i had the most BITCHIN time in the city yesterday and today.  i met renia yesterday after my train ride and we went to dinner and then to see mama mia, which i have to say i was quite fond of.  so then we took a train back to her apartment and stopped at 7/11 on the way home to get potato pancake ix that she made at 1 in the morning.  that was fuuuuunnn.  so i wake up from a very restful night on her couch and we take the train into the city, where we get bagels at grand central and she sticks me in a cab to adrian and roxy's place.  (cousin and cousin's fiancee.)  so i help her labe envelopes (200 of them) and then we take them to mail and THEN we finally get down to shopping.  so we walk around for a bit, go into a bunch of stores i can't even afford in my dreams, and then meet one of roxy's friends, rose, and continue the shopping.  so roxy finally realizes that i'm not having fun being tortured by the crazy prices, so she sends me and aunt maryann's cell phone over to canal street so i can actually do some shopping.  lol, bad idea.  i got a BUNCH of stuff.  including a dress, a shirt, 2 pairs of shoes, a watch, 2 belts, incense, and a ring that looks like it's right out of lotr.  all for under 70 bucks.  good, no?  so somewhere along the way they went to get lunch and dropped me in trash&vaudeville, my favorite store in the city.  i got the first extra small thing i've ever bought in my life.  scaaaarey.  anyhoo, so after i did my shopping, i went to this real expensive store that roxy and rose were gonna meet me at.  so i see this really beautiful dress, and i think hey, i'll take a picture of this for berr and also i can look at it for a pattern if i want to make a dress like this for myself, indtead of paying a thousand dollars for one.  so i set the dress up and take the picture and no sooner does the flash go off then this woman who works there, snooty and rich of course, yells "EXCUSE ME, THERE ARE NO PICTURES IN HERE!!" i was like GOD bitch,ur actin like i freaking just killed your kid.  stupid bitch.  so her and this other gay guy who worked there were looking st me with extreme disdain the entire time i was sitting in there waiting for them to finish trying stuff on, so eventually i was like man, fuck this and told roxy i'd be waiting outside.  so we wandered back to a street where we could easily catch a taxi and caugh tone back to the apartment.  soon after i took a walk down st marks to the park at the end of the street, where there were a significant amount of skaterboys.  mmmmmmm.  yummy!  so then i went to see my other cousin's new apartment, which has 12 foot ceilings and a freaking 60 inch tv.  silly just-out-of-college boys.  oh well.  so that was my yesterday and today in new york city.  how i love that place.         

Thursday, 08 July 2004

  • at adrian and roxy's- whoohoo!!!!!  going to go shopping in a minute and wander around the village and soho- HAPPY!!!!  

    p.s.- pablo neruda is my new obsession- look him up.  i promise you won't be sorry. 

    "Because of you, in gardens of blossoming flowers I ache from the
    perfumes of spring.
       I have forgotten your face, I no longer remember your hands;
    how did your lips feel on mine?
       Because of you, I love the white statues drowsing in the parks,
    the white statues that have neither voice nor sight.
       I have forgotten your voice, your happy voice; I have forgotten
    your eyes.
       Like a flower to its perfume, I am bound to my vague memory of
    you. I live with pain that is like a wound; if you touch me, you will
    do me irreparable harm.
       Your caresses enfold me, like climbing vines on melancholy walls.
       I have forgotten your love, yet I seem to glimpse you in every
    window.
       Because of you, the heady perfumes of summer pain me; because
    of you, I again seek out the signs that precipitate desires: shooting
    stars, falling objects."

    ~Pablo Neruda

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